FUCK WHY DID RIDE COME ON SHUFFLE I CAN’T HANDLE THIS RIGHT NOW.
The darkness inside of me is still very present. She’s still in there. But I almost want to silence her. She makes me think too much, she makes me want to be that girl that I truly am. But I don’t want to be her. I want to be the robot that I’ve been lately, I want to feel nothing. Feeling nothing is so much better than feeling everything that I feel. My heart is heavy, my mind is chaos.
I have never needed a change more in my entire life than I do now. I need a new life. A completely new direction.
Pills with million side effects
It’s so loud inside my head with words I should have said.
As I drown in my regrets, I can’t take back the words I never said.
Anonymous said: That's pretty funny, we have the same schedule. I'm also so much more productive at night so I end up working all night. Do you prefer the night? I think like right now will 8am is the best time of the day by far. It's so quiet and peaceful outside.
I prefer the night! I like right between 4 and 5 when the sun is rising
Anonymous said: So are you always tired? That really sucks when if you are. I have a couple hours then I'm wide awake! How come you can't sleep?
I will sometimes sleep in the late morning for three or four hours. But it usually very restless sleep. And I don’t sleep because for one I’m on a medication that keeps me up and for two I become more productive at night because I’m so drained during the day!